Shane left the salon making sure that she walked with her usual confidence. She got to her jeep and started wondering how she was going to do this.
It all sounded great when I said it, she thought as she drove away. Now she would have to make good on what she had told Adele. Shane knew she would have to seriously think this through, whatever it was she was going to do.
She’d call Tina.
Tina was looking through the production contract of Lez Girls when she heard a light knock on the door. She peeked in on Angelica to make sure she hadn’t woken up and then answered the door.
Jenny stood in front of her, the pea coat that she wore hung off of her small frame. Tina wondered why she was wearing this coat when it was hot out, but she decided to let that go.
“Jenny.” Tina looked confused. “How are you?”
Jenny smiled softly, but her eyes were sad. “I hope I’m not bothering you, I just needed to get the hell out of that house.”
Tina felt her maternal instincts made her want to reach out and take care of Jenny. But she knew that wasn’t possible, so she settled with welcoming Jenny into the house as warmly as possible. “Of course, come on in.”
Jenny stepped in and looked around the house, turning around to Tina’s voice.
“Do you want coffee or tea, anything?” Tina asked walking to the kitchen.
“Tea would be good.” Jenny said looking at the pictures of Angelica.
Tina pulled out a teapot and started to fill it with water when her cell phone rang. Tina looked down at the small screen and saw Shane’s name blinking.
“Shane?” Tina answered quietly.
Shane yelled. “Tina are you home? Can I come talk to you?”
Tina turned around, looking at Jenny who had taken the coat off and was settling into a chair. Tina backed herself into a corner of the kitchen. “I’m at Bette’s and now is not the best time for a visit.”
Shane swerved through traffic, causing horns to honk furiously. “Why not? I really need to talk to you.”
Tina placed the tea kettle on the stove and whispered. “Jenny’s here and well, you know...”
Shane rolled her eyes, so much for keeping the information at the Planet with Bette, Kit and Alice.
“Which one called you?”
“Was it Bette or Alice who told you about Niki?” Shane decided it was better to pull over for a moment.
“Bette, she texted me.” Tina said.
“Great.” Shane sighed waiting for a lecture from Tina.
“I’m in no position to judge you Shane. Look at what we did to Jodi.”
“Yeah, I guess. Listen, have you told Jenny about the ending of the movie, yet?” Shane asked.
“No I was going to wait for a little bit, with everything else that’s been going on,” Tina said and
looked in on Jenny again.
“If she asks, don’t keep it from her. Be honest,“ Shane lowered her voice. “I don’t want her to feel anymore betrayed than she does already.”
Tina could hear that Shane was concerned. “Hold on.” Tina stepped out of the kitchen. “Jenny I’ll be right back, I have to take this call. I’m so sorry.”
Jenny smiled. “It’s ok, Tina, I understand. Do you want me to come back later?”
“No!” Tina said sincerely. “This shouldn’t take long.”
“Okay,” Jenny said in her soft voice.
Tina turned and walked to the back patio. “Was that what you wanted to talk to me about?”
“That and …” Shane bit her lip.
Tina was looking at the flowers in the garden, waiting for Shane to talk. “Shane are you still there?”
“I went to see Adele,” Shane said quickly.
Tina dropped the phone. “Shit!”
Shane winced and pulled the phone away from her ear.
“You did WHAT?” Tina yelled.
“I found her and talked to her,” Shane said again.
“What did you exactly say, huh?” Tina was closing her eyes tightly.
Shane gave a quick run down of the conversation with Adele and she envisioned Tina slapping her head with her hand or strangling the phone as she talked.
“You told her you knew people who could help you?” Tina really did slap her forehead. “Do you realize she is going to assume that you meant me, which could jeopardize my say in what happens with the ending?”
Shane chewed on her lip again. “Uhm, yeah …well, that kind of crossed my mind afterwards.”
“Of course it did! Did you say anything else?” Tina didn’t know if she really wanted the answer to that.
“Heh, heh, I kind of told her not to fuck with me?” Shane said carefully.
“You said that?” Tina gasped and then wondered if she was going to need to put her head between her knees because she was seeing black dots in front of her eyes. “I’m going to have to kill you.”
“Hey! I wanted to help!”
Tina sighed and sat down. “I know, but you should have called me first.”
Shane played with the leather on her steering wheel. “I’m sorry, but I’m going to make sure she gets the ending she wanted.”
“Alright, but how are you going to do that?”
“I don’t know yet.”
Tina closed her phone and then looked at it for a minute before going back into the house. As she walked in Jenny was pouring steaming water over tea bags and she handed her a cup.
“The water was done so I thought I’d get the tea.”
“Sorry I took so long.” Tina said, smiling half-heartedly.
“No worries.” Jenny turned and went into the living room with Tina following closely behind her. “Is everything okay?”
“Yeah,” Tina replied. “ Just a little issue at work.”
Jenny nodded and looked down into her cup. “It means a lot to me that you’re still involved in the movie. I know that it will turn out fine with you there.”
Tina took a sip of her tea and almost choked when Jenny said this. The blonde set down her cup.
“Jenny I need to tell you something. Before I get into it. I want you to know, that I’m going to do everything in my power to make sure Lez Girls turns out the way you wanted it to.”
Jenny smiled. “ I know Tina.”
“But…I was told last night that the new sponsor wants…” Tina looked into Jenny’s eyes. “They want to change the ending.”
“Change it how?” Jenny asked, her face looking disturbingly unresponsive.
“They want to end it with Jessie going back to Jim.” Tina sighed and she watched as Jenny’s expressions went through several emotions; astonishment, anger and then sadness. “It’s total bullshit and I’m going to fight for your ending,” She continued when Jenny remained silent. “Please trust me when I say that, Jenny.”
Jenny took another sip of the tea and then rolled the cup between her hands.“ They can do that? Just change the script without my permission?”
Tina looked unhappily at Jenny. “I’m afraid so.”
Shane eventually pulled up to the house and stared at her steering wheel for a long time.
What did I start?
She pulled the strap of her camera bag over her shoulder and slid out of her jeep, walking slowly to the shed. She was going to need help with this.
Maybe Helena would buy out the studio. Shane would never ask her to do that, Helena had already done so much for her friends. Shane stood in front of the closed door of the shed. Shane heard a voice come from Bette’s backyard and she crouched and peeked through the cracks of the fence. She saw Tina picking something from her garden and then saying something to Jenny who was standing next to her. Jenny lowered her head and nodded slowly. Tina’s phone rang and she excused herself and walked into the house while Jenny looked at the flowers and then sat down, putting her feet into the pool. Shane was absentmindedly pulling her camera from her bag.
The small woman kicked her legs in the pool slowly. Staring down into the blue water, she lifted one of her hands from her lap and ran her fingers over the palm of the other. Shane cocked her head to the side and stood slightly, focusing the lens on Jenny’s hands. The picture turned from blurry to crystal clear. Shane snapped a picture and realized that there was a bandage on Jenny’s hand. She snapped another picture of Jenny and then moved so she would stay hidden. Jenny reached up and brushed her cheek.
Shane hadn’t realized she was moving closer to the fence, her feet shuffling pebbles. Jenny suddenly looked up and squinted her eyes. Shane didn’t try to hide anymore, she just stood still.
Jenny leaned forward and realized she was looking at Shane. They stared at each other for a few moments. Tina came out and sighed.
“Sorry about that Jenny,” Tina said sitting next to Jenny. Jenny smiled delicately and looked at the spot where Shane had been standing only to catch the back of her head as she walked away.
Shane walked into the shed and was greeted by Sounder II. Shane smiled and bent over to pat the small dog's head and looked up at Max, who was searching through some drawers.
“Hey sorry, I came out here to get my disks,” Max said opening another one of his drawers.
“It’s your studio Max. You don’t have to apologize.”
Max pulled out a few disks. “Yeah but it’s yours for now, so I didn’t want to intrude.”
Shane flopped herself onto the bed, laying on her back. Sounder yipped and jumped on the bed next to Shane, nuzzling her arm. “You aren’t.”
Max gathered some clothing, throwing them into a bag.
“God, will this day ever end?” Shane moaned.
Max snickered and made his way to the door. He glanced back at Shane, who was still splayed on the bed. “Shane?”
“I think I need to tell you something.”
Shane covered her face with her hands. “If it’s something that’s going to cause more drama, for the love of all things that are good…don’t tell me now. I don’t think I can take anymore today.”
“That makes sense. I’ll see you later. Come on Sounder,” Max said. Shane heard the patter of Sounder's claws on the floor and the door close.
Shane groaned again and grabbed her pillow, burying her face in it and hoping she could sleep the rest of the day away.
Shane cracked one of her eyes open and peeked out. It was dark in the studio and outside. She reached for her phone to look at the time. It was 1:43 am. She rubbed her eyes and blinked. What seemed like the outline of someone sitting by the workout bench caught her eye.
“I swear, if there are any ex girlfriends in here waiting to hit me in the head with something, get it over with,” Shane said, and when there was no movement from the bench, she ran like a scared little girl to flip on the light. She caught her breath, thankful that it was just a coat hanging off of the barbell bar.
“Jesus.” Shane shivered and grabbed her cigarettes. She looked down at her underwear and tank top, not remembering when she took her clothing off. She shrugged and walked out of the studio.
Jenny heard the door open to the studio and then saw Shane step out. She leaned against the doorframe and lit a cigarette. Jenny’s eyes gazed over Shane’s form; her carefree ways were something that Jenny had always admired about Shane. The tall woman seemed to stand with less confidence than usual and her shoulders were slouched slightly.
Shane sighed before pulling another drag from her cigarette.
“Can I have one?” a voice called to Shane, causing her to gasp and then cough.
“Fuck!” Shane croaked and turned to look at Jenny who was sitting on the stairs of their porch.
Jenny didn’t smile, she just stared at her. “Can I have a cigarette?”
Coughing once more, Shane walked over to Jenny and shook a cigarette out for her. She stood staring as Jenny took it and placed it to her lips and Shane shifted nervously.
Jenny moved her bangs out of her eyes. “I kind of need a light, too.”
“Oh right!” Shane went to light it for her, but Jenny just took the lighter from her hand instead.
Shane cleared her throat. “I thought you were quitting.”
“There’s too much shit going on to give up this vice,” Jenny said, exhaling the smoke and she noticed that Shane was looking anywhere but at her. “Couldn’t sleep?”
“I just woke up. I was trying to sleep the rest of the day away,” Shane said tiredly.
“Did sleeping make things better?” Jenny asked.
Shane stopped fidgeting and looked at Jenny. “No, everything is still where it was.”
“Damn I was hoping that it worked, so I could try it for myself.”
This brought a slight smile to Shane’s lips. Jenny smiled too and then looked at Shane. She could see the hopeful look in the green eyes. The smile faded from Jenny’s mouth slowly and Shane could feel her heart sinking.
“What happened to your hand?” Shane broke the silence, pointing at Jenny’s bandage.
“I cut it when I was picking up a broken glass.” Jenny sighed. “Don’t worry, I didn’t fall off the wagon.”
The last words came out short, causing Shane to flinch. “I didn’t mean it like you’d done…”
Jenny stood up and flicked her cigarette onto the driveway. She suddenly realized how close they were standing to each other. Shane didn’t back away and Jenny stared into her eyes. Jenny saw her eyebrows scrunch together in confusion and she stepped back, turning to go into the house. “Goodnight.”
Shane reached out and grabbed her arm. The touch felt like fire on Jenny’s skin, she took a deep breath and steadied herself.
Shane was talking fast. “Hey, I want you to know, I’m going to do whatever it takes to get us back to where we were. I’m not going to stop until I prove to you that…”
Jenny looked down at Shane’s hand on her arm and then back at her former best friend. “Shane.”
Shane stopped talking and Jenny continued. “I don’t know if we will ever be like we were. Things have changed and…”
“But I’ll fix it, I promise.”
“Don’t. I don’t know that I can be close to you the way we were. Do you understand?” Jenny’s eyes were bright, still conscious of Shane’s hand on her arm.
Shane nodded, keeping her eyes on the smaller woman.
“Do you understand?” Jenny said again and then saw a flicker of realization on Shane’s face. “It’s different now.”
Jenny felt Shane’s hand pulling her a little closer, but Jenny gently placed her hand on hers and pulled it off of her arm and walked into the house.
Author's Chapter Notes:
Jenny reaches out to Tina, while Shane realizes she may have started something a little out of her league.
Chapter End Notes:
Thanks to DD for her brilliant suggestions and editting (sp?), see I need her to edit my end notes too! All L Word characters belong to their creators, no copyright infringement intended.
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